I am a busy person. As most people are. But what am I busy with that I don’t have enough time to look after myself?
1. I am a teacher. My job is my life and my life is my job. I chose that path, and sometimes I love it, other times I hate it. I will not do it forever, just as it has not been my only job.
2. I put pressure on myself. I take on things that will take time. And a lot of my heart. I am generally, a yes woman. I have dreams and I hate the feeling of wasting time. I want to be a writer, but I have no time to write. I want to play music more, but I can’t seem to find the time to play. I run a charity and I place high expectations on myself to do this well, when I am hardly qualified to do so many things without finding others to help me.
3. Social media.
4. I am lucky to have family and friends who I try to see, but still don’t see enough. I am not good at making time to see people, because actually, I like being alone, just with my partner, in my garden, resting, taking it easy from the busy mid-week. I don’t enjoy being out in places where there are a lot of people. But that’s just me. But then the fact that I haven’t seen family or friends builds a sort of stress on my mind. (I tend to feel ‘busy’ with pressure. Do you?)
Anyway. It’s been a busy last year. I got engaged, moved house, planned a fantastically enjoyable and very DIY wedding in 6 months, and just had my honeymoon. My partner and I work hard, and our evenings are pretty much spent sitting on the couch doing work on our laptops. We are not overly active. We aren’t one of those couples who DO THINGS on the weekends. We have even got food delivered the last few months so we didn’t have to go shopping! We hit a bit of a food rut and so Hello Fresh provided us with recipes that were healthy (I am vego/pretty vegan and my partner is obligingly so, most nights) and the surprise of new and exciting meals each week spiced up our diet a bit.
(Sorry, I feel terribly selfish whinging about being busy – I don’t even have kids – HOW DO PEOPLE DO THAT? But you know, I think it’s a different busy when you don’t have to prioritise offspring.)
So – we decided we want to try to have children. Pretty much now. And there’s not really any better incentive, than wanting to make your womb a nice place, to get healthy.
But who knows what’s going on inside your body (or your partner’s)? We don’t know. Noone knows. And I have seen the pain on the faces of people I love when it did not work the way they planned. Sometimes it happens – sometimes it doesn’t. What a cruel fact of life.
SO, at 31 and having no idea what sort of state my reproductive organs are in – it is time to make some changes just to try to be sure. I want to be healthy, happy, calm and full of LIFE! Would you like to join me? I am taking the #30daystoabetterme challenge. OK, I just thought this up today, but the term is TOTALLY all over the internet. I have not coined this phrase it seems. (Not like ‘jawlking’ – I fully coined that – jogging/walking, in case you were wondering.)
It’s happening. And it’s happening tomorrow. Stay tuned.
*I AM kinda healthy now. And happy. But I drink. I don’t sleep a lot. I don’t exercise. I drink a lot of coffee, with sugar. I buy food from the school canteen when I have not planned lunch. I don’t drink enough water and don’t eat enough fruit. But I don’t eat meat, hardly any dairy. I eat a lot of veggies and right now, am in a good state of mind.